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The Angst of Publishing

Finding my purpose has never been a big issue.I have always loved reading and writing and therefore always aspired to be a writer.However,like many of us our dreams remained just”Dreams”. But due to second chances in life ,plus self-development courses l have chosen to pursue my life career.My defined purpose would be accomplished through the work of research and community reporting.My mission would be fulfilled through digital storytelling, featured articles or blog posts based on  real life stories in the communities .The sole purposes being that  of inspiring ,educating, encouraging and creating dignity awareness.

 

You may be wondering what is the problem here?The dilemma  is the Angst of Publishing.

  • 1.Perfectionist idiotism:-Basically this is my self-imposed restraint from publishing unless  my work is totally perfect.The best and the most captivating headlines and perfectly recorded videos.Aperfectly, unique writing style and with no chance of .
  • 2.Fear of Living A Destitute Life:-As much as l love writing,l personally lacked a dedicated trust in the career.I have always felt that l could not even mildly,be able to sustain myself in it.I convinced myself that l was not skilled or  good enough, nor adequately exposed to the world”circle” of writers.

Can you imagine the audacity of such thoughts ?Now that l have come back to my normal senses,l have decided to reveal these shortcomings in order to reclaim my rightful place as a writer and my destiny.This small step will lead to a gigantic future.One of the lessons l have learnt in this journey is to hold to a belief l know many writers can identify with.Deeply,knowing  “l am in this world,but ,l am not of this world”.The fact that l am living through my thoughts,and acting out by turning these thoughts into words  and sharing them through print or videos with the world.Now ,one modern habit l want to pick up is that of typing directly onto my computer.I want to discard the habit of first writing onto exercise books because the same is duplicating and time consuming.(No problem…laugh.It is old school mentality)

Fast forward,today…

Wait a minute.

What is this strange red signal at the top bar of my laptop?It has interfered with my chain of thoughts.I am really trying to figure out what to do.You can imagine l am almost going into panic mode.I stop,take a few long breaths and speaking to myself ,l decide there is no way all this vulnerability is getting lost because of a technical mishap.

So cheers.Much love and hugs from me.

(no excuses…)but…. l have to click…now…publish

 

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